My Life Purpose


I celebrated my first real Thanksgiving. In my old religion, they don’t celebrate it, so I never did. Which is why yesterday was a BIG day folks! 😉

I started it off by convincing my best friend to run a 5k with me. I thought for SURE she was going to kill me for forcing her to do it. She totally tried to strangle me when I wouldn’t let her quit part of the way in, but we both ended up finishing strong. It was the first 5k I’ve done, it felt amazing. Felt SO good. I just CRUSHED it. So I’m really proud of myself.

I can definitely say, I’m in the best shape of my life 🔥🔥🔥. I haven’t had much of an appetite lately and since I’ve added in extra workouts each day, my abs are RIDICULOUS right now.

I feel really really good right now, I have so much energy and I’ve been crushing my workouts. My core is super solid right now and I’ve been trying to really get down some yoga that I’ve been working on for awhile. It’s a nice challenge. As for my appetite, it’s starting to come back. I don’t know what it is about breakups, but post-breakup I have like no desire for food. None. So it was a good sign that I was excited about Thanksgiving dinner.

As happy as I am for the appearance of more definition on my baby abs that I’ve been working on for months, I was even more excited about all the mashed potatoes I devoured. Which is why I had to document the definition. Goodbye baby abs it was nice meeting you!

In all, my first Thanksgiving was amazing. After the 5k I hung out bestie at the beach, which is pretty much all I do nowadays. We played a round of touch football. I managed to get her in the water for a surfing lesson and got in a few waves myself. Dinner was amazing. Lots of laughs and so so much incredible food.


“thankful” seems like such an understatement for what I am. I am so so SO so ridiculously grateful, blessed, and straight up LUCKY that this is my life and I have so much to live for. 

I’m incredibly grateful for my best friends, cousins, and sister. They’re the people I can really lean on when things get tough. They’re always down for dance parties with me in my kitchen or singing at the top of their lungs in the car. They’re my ride or dies, and they mean everything in the world to me. My life is so bleak without them.

I’m thankful for the health of those that I love the most. All of the loss I’ve experienced this year taught me how much I’ve taken for granted.  Even if we don’t talk, or I don’t see them. I’m thankful that the people I love the most are healthy and happy.

I’m insanely thankful for heartbreak and for the many changes in my life. This year I’ve broken in ways I didn’t know were possible, but each time I found so much strength. I’ve grown so much and have become a better person. Heartbreak helped me fall in love with myself in ways I never did before. Now, I look in the mirror and I really love my soul and the sexy ass woman in the mirror staring back at me. I feel like I finally became the woman I’ve always admired, but never had the guts to be. Hanging out with myself is so much fun! I’m hilarious and I’m capable of so much more than I ever gave myself credit for. 

I’m also thankful for the incredible men I’ve loved this year. I know, weird thing to be thankful for… but I think Josh, Dusty, and Davide were exactly what I needed at that time. They taught me so much about life, love, and myself and I love each of them SO SO much for it. I really do. I hope that their life is full of so much love and blessings, they really do deserve it.

I’m so grateful for the ocean and incredible sunsets. My favorite thing to do is catch a few waves and then watch the sunset with some friends and Cliff while drinking wine.

I’m thankful for the art of poetry, the processes of writing, and this blog. It’s been such a big outlet for me. I’ve been thinking of moving towards focusing solely on the book that feels like it’s writing itself almost and shutting down this blog entirely. I don’t know. We’ll see what happens. If I do, thank you for reading and even caring about my life. We all go through heartbreak and loss in our lives, and getting a chance to share my journey with you has been really special.

I hope you have an incredible day surrounded by the people you love. Happy Turkey Day!

About Monica

Living in Newport Beach and Kauai. Survivor of crippling Anxiety and Depression. When I'm not cuddling my adorable dachshund puppy, surfing, or reading, you'll find me on here writing about my love life, loss, and everything in between.

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