Gosh, it sure is nice to be back in the states. As soon as my plane landed, I got Chipotle for dinner and then washed it down with my favorite Trader Joe’s wine 😂. I know… I’m super classy. Seriously… I really missed Trader Joes. One of my close friends Anne let me shower over at her house and then we went out line dancing in Long Beach. It’s been awhile since we’ve had some solid 1:1 hangout time and neither of us wanted to be bothered with guys, so we ended up just spending the whole night dancing with each other and catching up about life. I’m super good at leading, so I showed her some new moves that Davide and I had learned. So that was fun!
We made it back home fairly early, since I started to feel wiped out. Thankfully I’m not suffering from jet lag, so when I woke up super early this morning and I hit the ground running. California is this cloudy gloomy weather… but it feels really good to be back home. Where people drive on the correct side of the road lol.
Today was mostly centered around getting Cliff (my dog) prepped for the trip, ya know the boring stuff… taking him to the vet for his annual shots, then to the groomer’s to get his fur trimmed.
After that I went over to my sister’s apartment and met the movers to move some of my old furniture into storage. I’m really only going to keep this gorgeous wooden farmers table, a few boxes of heavy items, and a few of my surf boards that I didn’t want shipped to Kauai… but still wanted to hold onto.
After that I took Cliff to the Newport beach… he fell asleep on my towel while I surfed a little, but the waves were pretty shitty and the water was freezing. So I ended up laying out and writing deeply… which lead to mapping out this master plan that I have. Tonight one of my friends is throwing this big party, so I’m going to stop by for a bit and see everyone again.
I feel like I’m on the edge of something really big. I’ve been going through so much pain lately… pain that I don’t even know how to fully explain. I need to write about that part more… because I think it’s important to share the struggles instead of acting like everything is perfect. But I’ve found that the things that usually hurt us the most are the same things that have the power to set us free or cause change. And I came out of this latest battle… just really truly believing in myself in a way I haven’t before. I came out stronger than ever before. More determined. With a clearer vision of the kind of person I want to be and the life I want to live. This next dream is a really big one… but I feel ready to take it on. Ready to make the leap. Nervous/excited about what it all means.
Trying to get excited about July
I’m going to honest right now… I really don’t want to go to Hawaii tomorrow. Don’t get me wrong… I’m really looking forward to some quality time with my sister, we haven’t been alone in a house together since we used to live with each other over a year ago.
There is no way I’m going to miss an opportunity for some quality BFF time. My life is changing so fast, and so is hers… so I don’t know when we’ll have a chance like this again. Our friendship means the world to me… so not going just isn’t an option.
So I’ve been trying to find ways to get excited about this trip. I researched the good surf spots and the great cafe’s with solid wifi… so I have a solid place to get out of the house and work from. One of my cousins promised to let me borrow one of his short boards for the month… so when all else fails… there is always surfing. Being in the ocean always makes me feel centered. I plan on diving the Molokini Crater, which is something I’ve alwayyyys wanted to do. I also found a new gym that I’m excited about, which means getting back into my routine! And there is this big July 4th thing that we already got invited to, which will be fun!
I had forgotten that a few years back one of my old guy friends Alec moved to that specific island and he lives on the side of the island that my sister’s new place is on. He’s already planning a camping trip to Hana for us. Which is going to be tough to get my sister to do… she doesn’t do too well in the wilderness… but at the very least getting her into a tent will be worth a few good laughs. Actually, I should charge someone to film it… it’s going to be hilarious… I can already tell. It’s basically going to be an episode of Survivor.
I found a few hikes that I’m pretty damn excited to hit. Also this guy Jon who is someone I’ve known from years of being in the same industry, he nomads full-time in Asia- Pacific but is mostly based on Maui and will be on the island for July too. He asked me to speak at this small tech event geared towards women. That’s something I’m super passionate about, inspiring other women to become Boss Babes, so I’m excited about giving that presentation! Between all of that I’ll be plenty busy.
When Davide arrives I planned out a few trips for us… he loves glamping… so we were gonna go to a place on the West side called Camp Olowalu. I also booked us a few stays at some really nice resorts, I’m excited about this one awesome resort on the north side that I’m 😍 over. And since we haven’t been to the island Lanai yet… and my cousin Tots has been wanting to go for years, as an anniversary present to them I booked us a few rooms at this gorgeous resort. She’s going to die when she finds out. It’s going to be amazzzzing.
Between all of those things… I’m finally starting to get excited about it. It’ll all work out. You’re really only as happy as you make up your mind to be. And I’m determined to have an amazing time, no matter what.